Final Blog Post of 2012

Wow! Hard to believe 2012 is just about over and already is for some of us. This year just flew by and some moments were not the best for me but I got through them with the love, support, and strength of my fiance Rob, My Hero Alyssa Milano, and my BFFs Jen, Lisa, Sarah, Natalie, Lippy, and Ellen! I couldn't have gotten through any of my tough times without them and this little video I made is for them. 

 

I really hope you all like it! Back to my year end blog post. I have had to endure some hard moments this year and I am glad they are over and in the past. 2013 is a new beginning for all of us. Go into 2013 with open hearts and minds. Anything can happen and I hope that 2013 brings all of you everything you dreamed of and more. 2013 is a year for dreams coming true, progress, compassion, peace, love, hope, and new memories. Always believe everything can get better because it always can and always will. May 2013 be all you wished for any more. ~Peace and Love~

PS Rob, Alyssa, Lisa, Jen, Lippy, Natalie, Sarah, and Ellen You all mean the world to me and I will always love you and am always grateful for having you all in my life! <3

Innocence lost

Yesterday in Connecticut there was a horrible tragedy, a shooting again, this time at an Elementary school. 6 and 7 year olds shot dead with a shot gun. In the words of my hero and idol Alyssa Milano "What the fuck is wrong wtih people?" I would love to know why this keeps happening but even more so how do people with mental problems keep getting ahold of these deadly weapons? It's insantity and oh so sad. This is supposed to be the holiday season it's a time of joy, laughter, togetherness, but above all love, but the violence is trying to take the holiday spirit away.

In the midst of every tragedy there is hope and it brings people together all over the nation and even the world. We always overcome everything and we always will with the power love and hope. Alyssa brings that out through twitter her heart is so beautiful and huge and it makes me smile and gives me hope for the future even if things seem bleak right now.

Something else about this tragedy that really gets on my nerves is the media going up to those poor kids who just survive something they never should have gone through in the first actually nobody just have to endure what those kids did but anyway as I was saying the media goes up to those kids and starts interviewing them. I mean are you kidding me? They are traumatized and don't need that right now. You would think they would have some common sense and leave the children alone but no they want to get their story at whatever the cost. It just makes me so mad to see those poor children being interviewed after all they went through. Just leave the children alone. Rant over on that subject.

Every time something like this happens it always reminds me of that day back in April 2007 the worst massacre in US History the VA Tech massacre I was at college and had no clue what had happened until I was driving home and heard it on the radio I was just stunned and worried since I had friends there but they are all ok. I got home and turned on CNN and called my best friend Sarah. It was so scary that this tragedy was happening in my home state of Virginia. Now every time a mass shooting happens I flash back to that April day in 2007.

Now is not the time for debating gun laws and negativity but it's the time to come together as a nation and give love and support to the victims and families of this horrific tragedy but I do believe that something needs to be done and needs to be done soon to stop these tragedies from happening again.

"If you want peace, you won't get it with violence." - John Lennon

My favorite quote by my favorite person! "It's nice to be important, but it's important to always be nice"- Alyssa Milano

 

This is what we need all over the world today!

That is all for now. Be kind to one another always!

~Peace and Love~

Happy Thanksgiving!

Happy Thanksgiving to all who are celebrating today. Today is not just about eating all the yummy food but it's also a time to reflect on all we are thankful for. What are you thankful for? I am going to tell you what I am thankful for right now.

I am thankful for the yummy food I will be eating later today, the roof over my head here and at home in Florida. My family and friends. Our beautiful planet that we need to take care of for future generations, the ability to give back and help people less fortunate, creativity, my baking skills, my cats and all the other amazing animals on our planet, the beauty of nature, the stars, moon, rainbows, waterfalls, ocean and all the amazing wonders of our planet. and all the other things we take for granted everyday which we shouldn't and I am thankful to the men and women who are fighing to preserve our freedom right now and to those who gave their lives for our freedom including my late Grandpa and Grandaddy and my cousin Reid who is in the navy right now. 

But mostly I am Thankful for these wonderful people in my life:

My wonderful, amazing, sweet, prince charming, fiance Rob! I could never ever picture my life without him! He makes me the happiest woman alive and completes my life! He makes me feel special everyday! He makes me laugh and cheers me up when I am down and I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with him! I love him so much and always will!!

My Hero, Idol, and Biggest Inspiration in life, Alyssa Milano! She inspires me to be the best person I can be no matter what anybody says. She makes me smile everyday with her tweets, compassion, love, and humor. Her humanitarianism is so inspiring to me and has inspired me to start my own Chairty Water birthday campaign next month! She is a wondeful Mother to her adorable son Milo. She makes me feel like everything will be ok when I feel like everything is going wrong. Alyssa is an angel and I love her so much!

My Best Friend and Sis Jen! Jen makes me laugh and smile and I could never picture my life without her in it. She is always there for me and my fiance Rob. I could have never asked for a better Best Friend and Sis. I can always go to her with my problems and she always makes me feel better about everything. She is beautiful, sweet, and so talented. I love her so much and I always will!

Lastly I am thankful for my other Best Friends, Sarah, Ellen, Lisa P, Lippy, Natalie, Delphine and the other amazing people from Alyssa's Army!

So, while you are enjoying your meal today, remember what you are thankful for and never forget those who are less fortunate and always find ways to give back!

Happy Thanksgiving!

~Peace and Love~

Time To Be Grateful

I have been through a lot recently and it has made me realize how short life really is and how we have to make each minute count because you never know when it will be your last. It has also made me realize all the things and people I am grateful for and that is what this post is about.

First I am grateful for the smell of freshly cut grass, cookies baking in the oven, pizza, my cats, Twitter, the roof over my head, my Touch By Alyssa Milano items, one of the BEST sports ever Baseball!!, the warm breeze blowing through my hair, the beach but most specifically the ocean and the waves the sound is so relaxing, nature, my health even though my sinuses hate me, creativity, fun, and just life in general. I am grateful for so many things.

Second I am grateful for my wonderful, amazing, and hot fiance Rob. I love him more than the universe will ever know and nothing and nobody will ever change that. He's given me strength when I needed it most, he's always there for me, He is the love of my life and I could never picture my life without him in it. He is my soul mate, true love, and prince charming. He completes and makes me so happy. He makes me smile and laugh everyday and I am so so so grateful that we have each other and that he is in my life now and forever!

I am also grateful that we have the power to help change the world for the better and that's what my fiance is trying to do for his 34th birthday! Please join me in donating and spreading the word! http://www.mycharitywater.org/p/campaign?campaign_id=30406

I am so grateful for my my Hero, Idol, and BIGGEST inspiration in life Alyssa Milano! Alyssa is the most amazing, beautiful, compassionate, and sweetest woman on the planet! She makes my heart smile and me smile everyday just by being her amazing self. She makes me feel like everything is going to be ok even when I feel like it's not. She inspires me to give back any way I can. Alyssa has really changed my life for the better. She is an amazing mommy to her absolutely adorable baby boy Milo and it's one of my absolute biggest dreams to meet her someday and I so hope it comes true. I love Alyssa so so so so much and I always will!

Lastly I am grateful for all my wonderful BFF's Sarah, Ellen, Jen, Natalie, Lisa P, Lisa D, Liz, Delphine, Lippy, Laura, and so many more! You make my life happy just by being you and by being there for me and I love you all so much!

Must Follows on Twitter:

My Hero Alyssa Milano @Alyssa_Milano

My Fiance Rob @lil_red_man

My BFF's:

Jen @jennilly24

Lisa P @bittersweet9

Lisa D @LeeLeeDisme

Liz @cocacola222

Delphine @DelfineGonzalez

Natalie @NatalyinAK

Laura @laurawalker86

Lippy @LippyJimmy

If you're on Twitter which everyone should at least try it out then follow these amazing people who I love so much! There are many many more who you should follow but that's for another blog!

Be kind and give back whenever you can!

~Peace and Love~

My Fiance Rob (@lil_red_man) Is Doing Something Amazing For His 34th Bday!

My Fiance Rob is doing something amazing for his 34th birthday. He's doing a Charity Water Campaign just like my Hero Alyssa Milano has done and I will be doing for my 25th birthday in January. This amazing organization gives clean water to those who need it. I will be donating hopefully next week but you can help now by donating or spreading the word. Every little bit helps.

So, help my amazing and inspirational fiance and love of my life by donating and/or sharing his campaign: http://www.mycharitywater.org/p/campaign?campaign_id=30406

 

Don Burford remembered for musical skill, personality - WVEC.com

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Good News and Bad News

Well I have some good news and some bad news. Going to get the bad news out of the way first. A very good Family Friend Don passed away suddenly this Labor Day due to an accidental drowning. He and my Godmother lived together and were out on a boat and were wadding in the water and they didn't know how close they were to the ledge of the deep part of the river and Don slipped and went down and took my godmother with him. He managed to get my godmother back to the shallow end and she had ahold of his hand but he slipped from her grip and drowned. RIP DB we will miss you alot. I will miss all the times we laughed together and I will miss your music too. He was a bass player in a band with his brother called 10 spot. I just saw them play this past June. Don was also the bass player at one point for the 80's band A Flock Of Seagulls. :(  My 2nd bad news is my Grandma. We thought she had another hernia but she doesn't have one she has an infection and is on antibotics for it but may still have to be operated on. :(

Life can change in an instant so always be grateful for the things you have and the people you have in your life you never know when you will last talk to them.

My good news is hopefully soon I will be volunteering at least once a week to start off at the animal shelter here in Jacksonville where I got my cat Angel from. It makes me feel so good to know I am doing something good for homeless pets. Alyssa Milano is my hero and biggest inspiration for doing good in this world whenever I can. She is amazing. She makes me believe that there is still good in this world and that by giving back we can make our world a better place. Throughout my life I have done countless fundraisers for my schools and my club FCCLA Family Career Community Leaders of America, I did Jump Rope For Heart throughout my elementary school years. In my summer programs I did Meals on Wheels and volunteered at the food bank in Richmond, VA when I was a preteen. I have done the Anthem Heart Walk and the MS Walk in Richmond with my mom and her friends. I donated to Alyssa's incredible cause for her son Milo's 1st bday and you still can too http://www.indiegogo.com/MilosBirthday?c=home So now volunteering at the animal shelter adds to all the good things I have done throughout my life and I couldn't do it without my biggest Inspiration in life Alyssa Milano. I love you so much Alyssa and I always will.

My last good news is my dad who is a recovering alcoholic has been sober for a year now. He hasn't had a drop of alcohol in one year! Also he is down to smoking 3 packs of cigarettes a day and is working on quitting that. :)

Well that's all my news so far and I just want to sum up by saying how much I love my hero Alyssa Milano, my fiance Rob, and my BFF's Lisa, Sarah, Ellen, Natalie, Jen, Lippy and more! Never forget how much I love you all.

One last word: Please send prayers and good vibes to 2 wonderful, inspirational, and courageous guys Lippy and Geno (LippyJimmy and Genosworld on twitter) who are both battling cancer right now. I know they will both beat that horrible disease because they are both incredibly strong and I believe in them 100 %. I am behind them 100 % also. You can do it guys! Fuck Cancer!

~Peace and Love~

The Meaning Of Life

2 days ago I found out that one of my Grandma's best friends passed away. His name was Bob and he was there for my grandma when my grandpa passed away and she was there for him when his wife passed away. He and his son just recently rebuilt their house they lived right down the street from my grandma and they had to rebuild their house because a fire destroyed their old one. RIP Bob. :(

This sadness got me thinking about what the meaning of life is. The meaning of life to me is know who is the most important in your life and letting those people know how much you love them everyday. Knowing that life is short and we only have one to live and to make the most out of our lives. It's giving to those who are less fortunate and making others lives better and happier. It's knowing that you can overcome any struggle as long as you have courage, determination, hope, love and support. It's about being happy and having fun whenever possilble. Life is mean to be enjoyed. It's striving to make all of your dreams come true no matter what. That's what the meaning of life is to me.

The first statement is of particular importance to me because I have some of the best people in my life. My hero, Idol, and biggest inspiration in life Alyssa Milano. She makes me happy and smile every single day. My day and life wouldn't be complete without her in it. She has the mot caring, compassionate, and loving heart. She has love for everybody and gives back whenever she can. She is the twitter queen. She shows everyone the importance of kindness and compassion. She wants nothing but the best for everyone and that makes me love her even more then I already do. She is one of the best role models we have today and role models are important in shaping our lives and who we want to be. Everyone should look up to Alyssa!

My amazing Fiance Rob and my BFF's Jen, Lisa, Natalie, Lippy, Sarah, Ellen, and my rekindled friendships with Liz and Lisa D. I am so happy and thankful to have all of them in my life. They make me feel like I can do anything and be the best I can be. They are always there for me and I love them so much. Everyone should have friends like I have. They will make your life so much easier to get through and happier too.

I don't know everything as I am only 24 but I do know a lot and what I do know is life any and all life is precious and what we do now affects what happens to our planet and everyone in it in the future. We need to nuture love not hate. We need to spread peace and the importance of giving back to those in need just like Alyssa does. She has inspired me to be the best I can be and help whenever and however I can.

We can start by helping Alyssa and her precious baby boy Milo with her and Milo's first birthday campaign for St. Jude. http://www.indiegogo.com/MilosBirthday Any amount will do. I donated and it made me feel so happy and good to be able to help and even if you can't donate just spreading the word so that others can is a big help as well.

~Peace and Love~

@Alyssa_Milano & Milo raising money for St. Jude for Milo's 1st Birthday!

My Hero Alyssa Milano is being her inspirational and amazing self once again. Alyssa and her beautiful baby boy Milo are raising funds for a 4 year old boy with Leukemia and St. Jude where he is being treated for Milo's 1st birthday. Alyssa is truly amazing and my biggest inspiration in life. When somebody needs help she is there to help whether man, woman, child or even animal she is there to help. She reminds me that there is still good in this world and that all of us need to do what we can to make our world a better place. 

I have donated to Alyssa and Milo's wonderful fundraiser and you can too or if you can't you can at least spread the word so that others can. I know this is a short blog but it's packed full of meaning and love. Please if you can donate to this wonderful funderaiser and if you can't please spread the word so that others can help. 

http://www.indiegogo.com/MilosBirthday just click this link and follow the instructions to donate like I did. 

Together we can help Alyssa and Milo reach their goal or maybe even surpass it. 

Happy 1st Birthday Milo! You are already helping to make our world a better place! I love you so much Alyssa! 

~Peace and Love~ 

Senseless Tragedy

I went to bed last night and everything was fine and normal. I woke up this morning to my fiance Rob telling me about this mass murder in a theater in Aurora, Colorado. I was totally shocked and sadden by this senseless violence. I can't believe this keeps happening and I will never understand it. I will never understand why we have to kill each other.

The first thing that came to my mind when I first heard about this tragedy was the Virginia Tech Tragedy in 2007. I remember that like it was yesterday. Some of you don't know but I am orginally from Virginia. I was born and raised in Richmond. I was at college that day and was driving home and heard about it on the radio. I was completely shocked. I remember getting home as fast as I could turning on CNN and calling my best friend Sarah. One of our closest friends went there but she was fine. My cousin graduated from there. Sarah and I know other people who went there. I couldn't believe that was happening in my home state. So this morning when I heard about the tragedy in Colorado I was like "no not again." I don't understand some of the people in our world. I don't understand all of the hate and violence. I may seem old fashioned and I am only 24 my dad says I was born in the wrong decade and that I should have grown up in the 60's because I have such a hippie mentality. I believe in peace and love for all. What we can all take from this tragedy is that we only live once. We need to make the most of our lives and do all we can to make our world a better place. We need to say "I love you" to the ones we love the most because we might not get that chance again. Make everyday count for something good. Be grateful for what we do have. Look up to the amazing people we do have in our world such as my hero Alyssa Milano. 

My hero Alyssa Milano tweeted once " I want a world where we take of each other and our beautiful planet. One people. One planet. One Love." That is my favorite tweet ever of hers. I hope we have a world like that someday. Alyssa is such a huge inspiration to me and others and gives me so much hope for humanity especially during times like today. She is such a positive and good force in a world full of hate and violence. If we all take inspiration from her and do what we can to make our world a better place I am sure we can achieve a world that Alyssa and I want. We need more role models like Alyssa in this world. 

I want to end this post with 4 of my favorite songs that give hope in times like today. 

 

Martina McBride "Anyway" The Beatles "All You Need Is Love" John Lennon "Imagine" The Black Eyed Peas "Where Is The Love?"

I hope these songs inspire you as much as they inspire me. My love and prayers go out to all affected by the senseless tragedy in Aurora, Colorado. Peace and Love Y'all!

Today is a very special day for my fiance Rob (@lil_red_man) & I!

Today is a very special day for my fiance Rob and I. It's our first anniversary of being together as a couple. 1 year ago today we decided to start dating and I can't believe it's been a year already. It's been a bumpy road but we are still together and always will be. Somehow we've managed to stay strong and together through all the bad stuff we've had to deal with over the past year with certain people and I am glad we are past it all now. We are stronger than ever and so is our love. I am so happy I have found the one I want to be with for the rest of my life, my soul mate, true love, lilredman, and prince charming. I could never picture my life without me. He completes me in every way and puts up with my mood changes at certain times and I am so thankful for that. I feel bad that I can be a pain at times but I can't help it. I can't wait to be with him forever. He makes me laugh and smile everyday and is always there for me. He completes me in every way possible and makes me believe anything is possible. I have found my true love and I know everyone else can to if they never give up and keep believing. 

I have to thank some special people who without this special day wouldn't have been possible!

My hero Alyssa Milano. Alyssa is amazing and beautiful in everyway. She is the reason Rob and I are together today. She brought us together and for that I can't thank her enough. Alyssa makes me feel like anything is possible if I just keep believing and never give up. She gives me hope and makes me smile even when I don't want to. She makes me feel like I can do anything. She's my biggest inspiration in life and my idol. Her beautiful, compassionate heart spreads love and kindness to all. She is the best role model we have today and my role model as well. Alyssa always makes me feel like everything will be ok. It is one of my biggest dreams to meet Alyssa and I hope and pray that someday that dream will come true. I love you so much Alyssa and I always will! 

Rob and My BFF and sis Jen! Jen is sweet, amazing, beautiful, and talented. She is always there for us and always supports us. She makes me smile and laugh and I can't thank her enough for everything she does for us. One day I can see the 3 us doing the M&M dance together LOL (If you don't get that it's ok). Jen has always stood by us no matter what. We will both love her forever and that will never change. We will be friends forever thanks to Alyssa Milano bringing us together as she does for so many people. Thank you so much Jen for everything you have done and will continue to do for us. We love you so much!! 

My BFF Lisa! Lisa makes me happy and smile! She is always there for Rob and I and is and always will be so supportive of us. She is beautiful and amazing! She always knows what to say to make me feel better. We will be BFF's forever and that will never change. Thank you Lisa for always being there for Rob and I! We love you so much and we always will! 

Rob and My BFF Natalie! Natalie is amazing and beautiful. Always makes me laugh and smile. Always there for Rob and I and always so supportive of us. Us 3 are trying to lose weight and we support each other and will until we succeed and that motivates me more than anyone will ever know. We will always be friends and that will never change. Thank you so much Natalie for all you have done and will continue to do for Rob and I! We love you so much and always will! 

Those are the main people who without this special day wouldn't be possible there are others who are always there for us too: Dani, Pamela, Steph just to name a few more. We appreciate all who have been there for us through this year and will continue to be there for us for years to come!

Happy Anniversary my lilredman! my prince charming! My love! :) <3 XOXOXOXOXOXO

Something I want to share with the world!

I have some of the most wonderful people in my life. My hero Alyssa Milano for one but my fiance Rob and my BFF Jen are the top 2 most special people in my life and I want to share them with the world! I love them with all of my heart! They are always there for me! We are partners in crime and want to the M&M's dance (don't worry if you don't know what that is). We have so much fun talking together on Twitter! They are truly the best!

Rob is my fiance and the love of my life and my soul mate! He makes me feel special everyday and I never want to be without him in my life. I want everyone to find their soul mates just like I have found mine. Rob makes me laugh and smile and knows just what to say and do when I am in a bad mood. I know I have writen about him and Jen before but I can't help it they just mean so much to me along wtih Alyssa. I want to share all of them with the world and let the world know how special they are to me! I can't wait to be Rob's wife and to spend the rest of my life with him. He's the best guy in the world and beyond! I love him more than all the cookies, cakes, candies, ice cream and sweets in the world! I thank God everyday for bringing him into my life. I love how we have so much in common. He understands more than anyone in the world could and that makes me so happy! Rob is the one I dream about at night. I hope everyone has the chance to find that someone special in their life to dream about at night. I just can't wait to be with him period. Rob makes me feel like I can do anything in life and gives me strenght and motivation not to give up at anything! I love you so much Rob!!!! <3

Jen is one of the best friends I have ever had! She is always there for me and gives some of the best advice! She makes me feel like I can do anything. She makes me laugh and smile. I hope everyone has the chance to have a friend like I do! Jen is one of my best friends in the whole world and beyond! She always so supportive and sweet! She is so funny too! I know that one day Rob, Jen and I will get to hang out together in person and we will have so much fun together even more fun that we have everyday on twitter! I thank God for bringing Jen into my life. I am so happy and blessed to have a friend like her! Jen understands me just as much as Rob does and I am so thankful to God for that. I have never had someone really understand me before and now I have these 2 great, amazing, and loving people who do! Jen is just simply one of the best and greatest friends I have every had and I love her so much!!! I am glad and thankful to have her in my life!!

I have 2 of the greatest most wonderful people in my life. I never ever want to be without them. What we have is so special. Just because we don't hang out in person doesn't make us any less friends and fiance. We are there for each other and support each other in everything we do and that's what makes us so great and special! I love Jen and Rob with all my heart and always will!! I Hope everyone has the chance to find and have great, amazing, and sweet people in their lives like I have in mine!! I can be who I am with them and that means more to me then anyone will ever know. I am not the best when telling my feelings to people but I can tell Jen and Rob anything and I am glad I can. They make me feel so special and loved!!! Everyone should have people like them in their lives!!! I guess that's it! <3

It's that time again! Vote for @Alyssa_Milano for the Do Something Awards!

This is my hero Alyssa Milano winning the Do Something Award in the Twitter category in 2010. The same category she is up for this year. I remember watching her win that so happy and jumping up and down in my seat. Watching and reading my Twitter feed of all the happy and congratulatory tweets for Alyssa. She deserved it then and she deserves it now too.

My Hero Alyssa Milano does so much to make this world, our world a better place for all of us and she shares with us ways to get involved and help ourselves. She is inspirational in everyway and to many people including myself. I have loved every minute of following her on Twitter and watching her on TV and in movies. It makes my heart swell knowing this woman, my hero can get and should get the recognition and appreciation she so deserves.

Alyssa's heart is full of compassion for all and for all animals too. I am so proud to be a follower and admirer and to call her my hero, idol, and biggest inspiration as I am sure many others are as well. She has made many lives better and happier. She makes me believe and feel that I can do anything and is one of the best role models we have today. I am so proud to be part of Alyssa's Army on Twitter.

Alyssa is also a wonderful mother and wife. She has the most adorable son Milo and she glows with happiness and motherhood suits her so well. As I watched Alyssa's LA Kings win the Stanley Cup for the first time last night, I couldn't help but think how much she deserved that happiness and she really did and I couldn't be more happier for her. I couldn't be more happier for all the love and the wonderful son, husband, family, and friends she has and so deserves and of course I couldn't be happier that she has all of us fans too!

Alyssa's love knows no bounds or limits and she shares it with us everyday. Now we have a chance to show her our love and appreciation for all she does. Please nominate Alyssa for the VH1 Do Something Award in the Twitter category and show her how much we truly love and appreciate her and I hope and pray she wins that award again she so deserves it!

You can vote here! http://on.vh1.com/dsatwit I have and will continue to do so until we can't vote anymore!

Alyssa, I love you so much and appreicate everything you do and all the inspiration you give me and so many others. You are my hero, idol, and biggest inspiration and always will be. I hope my dream comes true to meet you someday!!

Everyone please vote for Alyssa Milano!!!! <3

Pics from Harbor Fest! Norfolk, VA

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Bruce Hornsby Concert at Harbor Fest Norfolk VA @lil_red_man

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My BFF Sarah & I @ Mom's 60th bday party! Yes I'm wearing my @TouchByAM Braves Shirt!

Double Rainbow!!!!

Happy Birthday to my wonderful, amazing, & sweet friend Jen (@jennilly24)

 

A very special birthday is here. My very sweet, funny, and amazing friend Jen's birthday is here! She is a wonderful friend with a huge heart. She's very talented. I am so lucky to have a friend like her in my life. It feels amazing to have a wonderful friend who is always there for me. I wish everyone could have a friend like Jen in their lives. Along with my fiance Rob, Jen and I we are partners in crime. We would never stop laughing if we were together. I cherish every moment that we talk and spend time together. If it wasn't for my hero Alyssa Milano none of us would have found each other. I am thankful for her everyday. I feel so loved and accepted a feeling I haven't felt in a long time. She makes me laugh and smile everyday. If I could I would give her a party that is out of this world because she so deserves it. 

I wish Jen a very happy birthday with many more happy years to come. She is special, sweet, beautiful, and amazing. Everyone would love her. You very special to me Jen. It's time to celebrate, have fun, and be grateful for everything. Jen, you deserve all the happiness and love in the world. I hope that your birthday is as special as you are. Rob and I are always here for you and always will be! I hope everyone will join me in saying a very happy birthday to my wonderful, amazing, and sweet friend Jen! 

Finally Realizing My Dreams

I used to write down in my diary/journal ( I had both) about things I thought I wanted in my life. I never truly realized what I want until this past Saturday. My 3 biggest dreams in life are be with my fiance Rob forever, be a published author ( writing is my passion), and meet my hero Alyssa Milano! I want these things more than anything in the world and I now realize that. 

My fiance Rob is the love of my life and my soul mate. I never thought I would find my soul mate but I did thanks to my Hero Alyssa Milano! He makes me feel so special and loved. I have never felt that feeling before but it's one of the best feelings in the world. I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with him. I can't wait to be his wife and have kids. We will name our first daughter Alyssa after Alyssa Milano. I can't wait to have all of this but I have to finish college first which is the hard part right now. I am almost completely broke. I can't even afford to take even one more class and I don't know what to do. I feel like I am stuck between a rock and hard place and don't know how to get out. It sucks feeling like this but I know it will get better it always does. 

I have loved writing ever since I can remember. It is my passion. I love writing stories, poetry, and more. I have always wanted to a New York Times best selling author ( I hope). I have a crazy imagination because if I didn't I wouldn't have gotten an A in my creative writing class last fall. I have story ideas already except dummy me accidentally deleted the folder that had them in it from my flash drive but fortunately I remember my ideas. I was going to start writing but my laptop died again. I am working on getting a replacement this time and hope I do. 

Last but never least one of my biggest dreams is to meet my hero Alyssa Milano! She is completely and totally amazing! She makes my heart smile everyday! She has made me feel like everything is going to be ok even on my hardest days! She is a bright spot in my day! She is one of the best role models we have today and everyone should look up to her! She is my Idol and my biggest inspiration in life! It will be one the happiest days of my life when I get to meet her. I have never felt that any of my dreams could come true but this one I have the strongest feeling that it will and I believe that with all my heart. I have imagined how it will be when I meet Alyssa and I always imagine myself crying with happiness and I believe that I will. It's really hard to express with written words how much Alyssa truly means to me. Alyssa has made me believe that anything is possible. I love her so much!

I believe with all my heart that my dreams will come true someday. Everybody has dreams no matter who crazy or out of this world they are and if you have the faith and determination to persue them they will come true. Never give up on your dreams. I won't. 

Peace and Love <3 

The Most Important People In The World To Me

I often have a hard time coming up with something to blog about. I like to blog about people and things who mean a lot to me and things that I am passionate about. I love making people smile especially those who mean the world to me and I love writing about how much they mean to me know that when they read it they will smile and be happy. I know I get repetitive a lot but if I didn't I'd be hardly blogging at all. I love to blog and write and sometimes I repeat myself. This blog post is about the people who mean the world to me. I hope everyone has special people like these in their lives.

My Hero, Idol, and biggest Inspiration Alyssa Milano. She is so amazing and makes me smile everyday. Everyone should have someone like her in their life. Alyssa is one of the most compassionate people in the world. She tries to make our world a better place anyway she can. The world needs more role models like her. Not only is she an amazing actress, she is an amazing mommy, wife, sister, daughter, and friend to all. Alyssa makes me and so many others smile everyday. She makes me feel better when things are going wrong. She makes me feel like eveything will be ok. She is the bright spot in so many people's lives including mine. She is a true beauty inside and out. Alyssa is truly an amazing, beautiful, and sweet lady who I love with all of my heart. Everyone should follow her on twitter.

My Fiance Rob is the love of my life and my soul mate. At a time when I thought I'd never find love I did and I am so thankful to have him in my life now and forever. He has a huge heart and a beautiful soul and is always there for me. I love our times we spend on Skype together. He makes me laugh and smile all the time. Rob understands me and who I am more than a lot of people do and that makes me so happy. We have so much fun and I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with him. I finally don't feel alone anymore. I have happiness in my life again and I thank God for bringing Rob into my life everyday. I hope everyone has a chance to find their true love just like I have.

Dani is one my best friends. She is a stong, amazing, inspirational woman, wife, and mother. She has cancer and PH but that doesn't stop her from being the best she can be. She has a strength I have never seen before. She is always there for my fiance Rob and I and I appreciate that so much. She makes me smile and laugh. She listens to me which a lot of people don't. She is sweet, funny, so beautiful inside and out, and a really great friend. I am so grateful to have her in my life. I love her so much. I wish everyone had a friend like Dani.

Pamela is another one of my best friends. She is a strong, amazing, inspirational woman, wife, and mother. She is always there for my fiance and Rob and I and I appreciate that so much. She listens and understands me. She makes me laugh and smile. She is a very beautiful woman with a very sweet heart and soul. I thank God everyday for bringing her into my life. I am so happy to have her as my friend. I love her so much. I wish everyone had a friend like Pamela.

Lisa is another best friend of mine. She is amazing, sweet, funny, and beautiful. She loves Alyssa Milano as much as I do and has an adorabe cat named Tyger. She makes me laugh and smile. She is always there for me and listens to me and I appreciate that so much. I am so happy to have her as one of my friends. I thank God everyday for bringing her into my life. I love her so much. I wish everyone had a friend like Lisa.

Jen is another best friend of mine. She is talented, amazing, sweet, and beautiful. She is always there for my fiance Rob and I and I appreciate that so much. She has an amazing singing voice and will be a great filmaker and singer someday. She loves Alyssa Milano as much as I do. She makes me smile and laugh. I am so happy I have her as my friend. I thank God everyday for bringing her into my life. I love her so much. I wish everyone had a friend like Jen.

Delphine is another best friend of mine. She is beautiful, sweet, and fun. She is always there for me and listens to me and I appreciate that so much. She makes me smile and laugh. I am so happy to have her has my friend. She has a beautiful heart and soul. I thank God everyday for bringing her into my life. I love her so much. I wish everyone had a friend like Delphine in their life.

Last but not least my 2 best friends Sarah and Ellen who I have been best friends with since I was 12. Sarah and I graduated high school together and went to Disney World together after graduation. Ellen is a mother now to her beautiful daughter Annabell. Ellen and I did art club together at the YMCA after school program in Virginia and spent 3 summers together at the YMCA Camp Saponi in Virginia she was my conselour, then the arts and crafts director, then the director for the younger group. The both make me laugh and smile so much. I am so happy to have them both in my life. I love them so much.

These are just a few of the the people who mean the world to me there a re so many others too like Lippy, Steph, Laura, Niki, and so many more. I wish everyone had great people in their lives like I do. I love you all so much. You all make me so happy. <3 :) XOXOXOXOXOXO

My Fiance Rob (@lil_red_man) The Greatest Man In The World!

I have been thinking about what to blog about recently and nothing makes me happier then blogging about the people I love so this blog is about my true love and soul mate my fiance Rob! Rob has Autism but that doesn't make him incapable of doing things or feeling things like love. He is the kindest most amazing man I have ever known and it makes me so happy to be his fiance. I love him with all my heart. I have always felt like I would never find love mostly because the pressures I am constantly under but I did find love. It doesn't matter who or where you find love. Love is love not matter what. I always thought love finds you when you least expect it and when you need it most and it is true. I found my love when I needed him most and when I least expected it. Rob completes me. He and are like twins it's amazing. We both love Alyssa Milano she is my hero and if it wasn't for her Rob and I would have never found each other and fell in love. It's one of my biggest dreams to meet Alyssa someday and I so hope it comes true. Rob makes me feel special and loved. He makes me happy and accepts me for me. He understands me when most don't. He's just down right amazing. He's amazing to our friends Dani, Jen, Pamela, and Steph as well. I thank God everyday for bring Rob into my life. I finally have someone who will never leave me and I feel so safe with him. 

 

Rob was born November 9th 1978 and almost died. I was born January 31st 1988 with a hole in my heart., Yes we are just about 10 years apart but when you are in love it doesn't matter. We have gone through a lot of the same things with certain people in our lives making fun of us and treating us like crap but now that we have each other we can go through it together and come out stronger then before. I can't wait for us to be married and to be together forever. Rob will make an amazing dad one day and I have already planned to name our first daughter after Alyssa Milano we will name her Alyssa of course. I love that name. It's to honor Alyssa for bringing Rob and I together. We have both been through a lot in our lives but now we have each other, amazing friends, and an amazing future to look forward too. I can't wait. 

 

April is Autism Awareness month. Rob has a high functioning version of it but didn't know it for while in his life. He was on all sorts of meds that did nothing but made things worse. I am so glad he finally got the correct diagnosis and is off all those bad meds. He is also a cancer survivor. He had skin cancer taken off of his head I am so glad his mother did something about that because he might not be here with us if she hadn't. Rob inspires me to be a better person and we are going to lose weight and better our lives together and I can't wait. 

 

To honor Rob this Autism Awareness month I want as many people as possible to put the Autism Ribbon on everything they can. Their blogs, twitter backgrounds, facebook everywhere and help others learn what Autism is all about and that it's not a bad thing. 

 

I love you so much Rob. I will always be here for you and love you forever. You are my soul mate and true love and you complete me. Nobody can or will take me away from you. You will always have me in your life. I will never ever leave you. You mean the world to me. You are amazing and very special and you can do anything you put your mind to. I will support you all the way just like you do for me. I just hope I can finish college as soon as we would like so we can finally be together. I only have enough money for one more class at the moment but we will find a way for me to finish college. We are stronger together then we ever were before. <3 :) XOXOXOXOXOXOXO

 

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I have been thinking about what to blog about recently and nothing makes me happier then blogging about the people I love so this blog is about my true love and soul mate my fiance Rob! Rob has Autism but that doesn't make him incapable of doing things or feeling things like love. He is the kindest most amazing man I have ever known and it makes me so happy to be his fiance. I love him with all my heart. I have always felt like I would never find love mostly because the pressures I am constantly under but I did find love. It doesn't matter who or where you find love. Love is love not matter what. I always thought love finds you when you least expect it and when you need it most and it is true. I found my love when I needed him most and when I least expected it. Rob completes me. He and are like twins it's amazing. We both love Alyssa Milano she is my hero and if it wasn't for her Rob and I would have never found each other and fell in love. It's one of my biggest dreams to meet Alyssa someday and I so hope it comes true. Rob makes me feel special and loved. He makes me happy and accepts me for me. He understands me when most don't. He's just down right amazing. He's amazing to our friends Dani, Jen, Pamela, and Steph as well. I thank God everyday for bring Rob into my life. I finally have someone who will never leave me and I feel so safe with him. 

 

Rob was born November 9th 1978 and almost died. I was born January 31st 1988 with a hole in my heart., Yes we are just about 10 years apart but when you are in love it doesn't matter. We have gone through a lot of the same things with certain people in our lives making fun of us and treating us like crap but now that we have each other we can go through it together and come out stronger then before. I can't wait for us to be married and to be together forever. Rob will make an amazing dad one day and I have already planned to name our first daughter after Alyssa Milano we will name her Alyssa of course. I love that name. It's to honor Alyssa for bringing Rob and I together. We have both been through a lot in our lives but now we have each other, amazing friends, and an amazing future to look forward too. I can't wait. 

 

April is Autism Awareness month. Rob has a high functioning version of it but didn't know it for while in his life. He was on all sorts of meds that did nothing but made things worse. I am so glad he finally got the correct diagnosis and is off all those bad meds. He is also a cancer survivor. He had skin cancer taken off of his head I am so glad his mother did something about that because he might not be here with us if she hadn't. Rob inspires me to be a better person and we are going to lose weight and better our lives together and I can't wait. 

 

To honor Rob this Autism Awareness month I want as many people as possible to put the Autism Ribbon on everything they can. Their blogs, twitter backgrounds, facebook everywhere and help others learn what Autism is all about and that it's not a bad thing. 

 

I love you so much Rob. I will always be here for you and love you forever. You are my soul mate and true love and you complete me. Nobody can or will take me away from you. You will always have me in your life. I will never ever leave you. You mean the world to me. You are amazing and very special and you can do anything you put your mind to. I will support you all the way just like you do for me. I just hope I can finish college as soon as we would like so we can finally be together. I only have enough money for one more class at the moment but we will find a way for me to finish college. We are stronger together then we ever were before. <3 :) XOXOXOXOXOXOXO

 

My Best Friend & Sis Dani @min_svart_ros has Carcinoid Cancer and Pulmonary Hypertension

Dani is an amazing woman, mom, wife, and friend. She will be there for everybody and now it's our turn to be there for her. Dani has Carcinoid Cancer a rare cancer that can't be cured. Carcinoid tumors are a slow-growing cancer that can arise in several places throughout your body. Carcinoid tumors, which are one subset of tumors called neuroendocrine tumors, usually appear in the gastrointestinal tract (appendix, stomach, small intestine, colon, rectum) and in the lungs. 

Besides Carcinoid Cancer Dani also has Pulmonary Hypertension. Pulmonary Hypertension is an increase in blood pressure in the pulmonary artery,pulmonary vein, or pulmonary capillaries, together known as the lung vasculature, leading to shortness of breath, dizziness, fainting, and other symptoms, all of which are exacerbated by exertion. Pulmonary Hypertension can be a severe disease with a markedly decreased exercise tolerance and heart failure.

Dani has always been there for me and so many and now we can be there for her in her time of need. Please click the yellow donate button on the right side of my blog and donate whatever you can to help her with her medical and transportation expenses for her Cancer and PH. All amounts help and if you can't donate just sharing this post will help to get it to people who can help. 

Please help this amazing woman and my friend live a long life. Thank you so much. 

More info on Pulmonary Hypertension http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pulmonary_hypertension

More info on Carcinoid Cancer http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Carcinoid_Cancer

 

Inspiration and Moving On

I haven't blogged in a while so decided that I need to. I have finally realized some good things in my life in the midst of all the bad. My true love and soul mate Rob who will never leave me and I will never leave him! I love him more than anything in the universe beyond. I used to doubt things in my life like the good would never stay but good does stay. I have finally realized that. I have finally realized who my true friends are and I believe it and love them with all of my heart! My fiance Rob is also one of my best friends, Sarah, Ellen, Delphine, Jen, Dani, Lisa and Lippy! I Thank God for bringing all of them in my life. I'd be lost without them! I often had times where things would go bad and I would get so down and sad and feel like things would never get better but they always did and always will. I realize that now. I have finally moved on from all the bad stuff. Bad things will always happen that is life, but it's how you handle them that makes you the person you are. I feel like a weight has been taken off my shoulders. I hate how negative I can get and I am working on staying postive. My Nana has almost died twice. She has alzheimers and lung problems. She came back again and the hospice people said she could live 10 years like that. It will be really sad when she does pass. I wouldn't love country music as much as I do without her. She and I would watch CMT back when it was nothing but music videos. Life goes on though. 

I have to mention how important and amazing my Hero Alyssa Milano has been to me. She's not just my favorite actress, she's someone I consider a friend. She makes me smile and laugh everyday. She has the biggest most compassionate heart. She always makes me feel better when I'm feeling bad. She's someone everyone should look up to. She's so beautiful inside and out. I love her so much. I thank God for bringing her into my life. Alyssa is one of the best people to ever come into my life. 

Some things I have realized thanks to my amazing fiance Rob and my hero Alyssa Milano:

-Stay positive. Life will always have it's ups and downs but it's how you deal with it that makes you the best person you can be. 

-Happiness is a choice. Choose to be happy. look on the best side of life. appreicate what you have and who you have in your life than dwell on what you don't.

-Move on. People who hurt you aren't worth it. I am glad I finally realize this and have real true friends now. 

-Believe. This is one of my favorites. I have 3 major dreams in my life. Meet my hero Alyssa Milano, be a published writer, and be with Rob forever! Believe in yourself and your dreams. Your dreams will come true.

-You are loved. Even if you don't feel it at the moment. You are loved. I know who loves me. Rob, Alyssa, Delphine, Jen, Dani, Lisa, Lippy, Sarah, Ellen and more. 

-Spread the love, happiness, and compassion. One of the best ways to lift up your spirits and spirits of others is to help others in need. Even if you can't donate money, donate your time, or at least make someone smile. You will be amazed at how much better you will feel about yourself.

 

 

 

2 vids from Jimmy Buffett concert! 1st 1 reminds me of @Im_lil_red_man!

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Pics from Jimmy Buffett concert on my birthday yesterday!

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Wearing the bracelet @SarahDee77 made me & I love it! <3 :)

Repeating Myself.

I have been repeating myself on this issue in blog posts before but I can't help it. When I read that tweet that My Hero and favorite actress Alyssa tweeted as a reply it broke my heart. She said " Agreed. There should be a law against it. And this is why I don't leave the house." This talking about those greedy, selfish, vultures the paparazzi. It broke my heart to read that. Alyssa is an amazing, wonderful, beautiful, inspirational woman and mother and she should not have to stay in her house because of the paparrazi taking pics of her and her son. I actually feel guilty for having a normal life which Alyssa so deserves so much. She should be able to go and come as she pleases without having to look over her shoulder for the paparrazi. I have read that there are laws against the paparrazi in countries overseas. Why can't we have that here in the US where it so needed? Alyssa does all she can to help make our world a better place and we should at least find a way to have tougher laws on the papparrazi. It's so dangerous too. They cause vehicle crashes and all sorts of things. They can scare children like Alyssa's son. It's horrible and breaks my heart and that's why I can't stop writing about it. I love, admire, and respect Alyssa so much for everything she is and does and I won't stop writing about this until something changes. I just hope change happens before something tragic happens again. What will it take to enact tougher laws against the paparrazi? Why does that need to happen for something to change? I wish I knew. I will just continue to pray for Alyssa every night before I go to bed. I hope one day something changes for good. 

First Blog Post of 2012!

So it's the first day of the new year 2012 wow that came fast. A new year to start fresh and make things happen. good things i might add. My resolutions are to meet my fiance Rob in person and to figure out how to get all the drama and negativity out of my life. So much bad and good happened in 2011. I met the love of my life Rob thanks to Twitter and Alyssa Milano my hero, idol, and biggest inspiration! I love them both so much and they mean more to me than anything! However there were some bad so much drama and hatred among people who used to be friends. So much going back and forth. I came to twitter almost 2 years ago to find friendship and fun and I did and I found love too but I also found loss and pain. I don't understand why I all of sudden started getting picked on and I still don't. I just wish it would stop. I wish everything would stop, the name calling, hurtful words, making fun, and just drama in general i just wish it would stop. People acting like children when we should be adults and cyberbulling too. It's just all ridiculous really. Well 2012 is the year all of that ends I am sick and tired of it. It's not fair to me or the other people who have to read it in their timelines and stuff. The hurting and bullying must end. 

the loss of a friend especially someone considered a best friend is hard for anyone and me. I have cried over a certain friend so much over the past year. It hurts so much feeling pushed aside. No matter how many times I have been told differently I always felt the end of the friendship was near. I will always care about and love that certain friend but I feel like it's getting to the point where I just have to let go and move on. It's so hard to differeniate these days between real friends and not but I know who mine are. 

I am sick of people being mean to Alyssa. I wish that would end too. She has a huge compassionate heart and tries to make our world a better place and some people just have to be rude and mean and it breaks my heart. I know I have said this plenty of times but I can't help it. Seeing people being rude and mean to her just breaks my heart. I love her so much and I just wish people could see her the way I do. 

But life goes on and a New Year brings new possiblities and hope for change for the better. Maybe I am just being optimistic but I can only hope and try to change things for the better. I hope 2012 brings happiness and end to the drama! Hope 2012 is great for all!