My Final Thoughts on 2014

2014 has been a year filled with happiness and love but also sadness and pain. Ups and Downs and everything in between. Here are my final thoughts on 2014 and my New Years Resolutions for 2015! 

I guess I will start with the good things about 2014. My birthday in 2014 was the BEST birthday I have ever had! I have talked about this enough times I know but since this is my 2014 year in review I have to talk about it again. 

January 28, 2014! 3 days before my 26th birthday was the best day of my life so far! That is the day that I met my idol, someone who means the absolute world to me, Lucy Hale! Lucy is just amazing and the sweetest person on the planet. That day meant everything to me. After being down for so long, that day and Lucy lifted me back up, gave me hope and made me believe in my dreams and that dreams really do come true. I so hope I get to see her again! I love you more than you will ever know, Lucy! Also, I want to say to everyone hating on Lucy for any reason what so ever lately it is because she cut her hair short, shame on y'all. Just because you don't like someone or what they do or how they do things doesn't mean you can bully them and be disrespectful. Lucy is not just a celeb, she is a human being with feelings and heart just like the rest of us and it makes me sad and mad to read hateful things towards her. Lucy is beautiful no matter what she does and I love her hair it is beautiful on her! Hope y'all like the poem I wrote about Lucy as well. This is the first time and place that I have posted it.

As with any year, there a good times and bad times. A week after I met Lucy, My Grandma passed away from pneumonia. My Grandma was one of my favorite people in the world. She was one the strongest people I knew. I was really sad after that of course. In May, we took Grandma back to Michigan to bury her ashes right next to Pa in the plot she had purchased many years ago. I will always miss and love you Grandma! 

When I didn't think things could get much worse, on July 4, 2014 my Nana passed away. I just couldn't believe it. I sat there shaking uncontrollably. I had seen Nana just a month before and she was fine. I couldn't believe this happened again. My Nana gave me the love of Country Music! The BEST genre of music there is I don't care what anyone says. I will always love and miss you Nana! 

 Things were getting better or so I thought until October 2014 when I found out a long time family friend Joanne had passed away from Lung Cancer the same cancer that took my Grandaddy when I was 14. Joanne always made me laugh and she had the longest hair but she smoked for as long as I knew her she smoked and because of that she had developed lung cancer. She had done all the treatments but even after she finished that there were still spots left on her lungs and her dr said her body couldn't handle anymore treatment so this past October, she passed away. I will always remember the fun times we had, Joanne! 

So, I didn't go home to Virginia for Thanksgiving for the first time in a long time. I stayed in Florida. That was different for me as was this Christmas. No Christmas tree, hardly any decorations, and it just did not feel like Christmas to me. I did go to Richmond though and I did get to see Sarah like usual so that was good. Seeing Lucy's Disney Celebration performance on Christmas Day made things a little easier to handle as well, and here we are now December 31, 2014. The final day of the year and I am glad that a new year is starting. 

2014 has been a year of unrest, violence, pain and little hopes for humanity thrown in in between the madness. The race issue continues to boil here in the US and it was never really dead to begin with. All the rioting and looting and violence it's just sad that in this day and age we can't all get along and learn to except each other for our differences. We all have the same organs and features but because we all look different, people think that is an invitation to hurt one another and it is ridiculous. Our obsession with material items is getting out of control too. There are more important things in the world than the newest electronic or shoes or something. People going nuts just to get one or a pair and stealing and beating people up it is seriously messed up. If you don't have the money to buy something then you can't get it plain and simple. 

Love is the most important thing we all need. Whether it is family, friends, boyfriend, girlfriend, whatever. We all need love. I am lucky enough to have found my true love and soul mate, Rob. He has been the biggest blessing in my life, even if some people don't believe it, it is true. He understands me, loves me unconditionally, makes me feel loved and safe and happy and makes me feel like I am not alone. We complete each others sentences and laugh about stupid things. We love a lot of the same people and things. It is like a match made in Heaven and I thank God for him everyday! I love you so much Rob and I always will. You are the other half of my heart! 

So for 2015, I hope that we can change our world for the better. Find solutions to our problems by talking with each other not by battling each other, that is unlikely to happen but a girl can wish right, We need more love and compassion in this world, we need more positive role models and education. 

My New Year's Resolutions for 2015: 

Lose weight! I really need to lose weight badly. I don't eat a lot but I am still overweight for my short height. 

Figure out something to do with my life. It's very hard for me to figure something out. I love multiple things and it still my dream to be a published Author and I am going to work very hard to make that happen. Writing is my passion. I love photography, weather, animals, and working on the computer as well. I will hopefully be volunteering at my animal shelter when I get back to Florida, I am hoping that will lead into something for me. I would love to work or volunteer at a cat rescue if possible, I wish I could find one. 

Continue to be myself and not care what anyone says. I have always had a problem with that. I always take what people say about to heart whether good or bad and I need to stop that and I will. Nobody is going to change who I am or anything. 

Hopefully get closer to getting married and being with my love forever. I can't wait until that can happen but we need a lot of things to happen first. 

Lastly, continue to love and support Lucy Hale, Alyssa Milano, and watch Pretty Little Liars! The main people and the show that makes me the happiest and I will always love and support them! 

Happy New Year Y'all! May 2015 bring you everything you hope for! 

~Peace and Love~ 

















 

The Loss Of Someone Special and What It Means To Me

As you may know or should know by now 3 days before my birthday was one of the best days of my life so far. I got to meet on my Idols, Lucy Hale! I love and adore her so much but 3 days after my birthday back at the beginning of Feburary, my Grandma passed away. She meant a lot to me. We laughed so much together. We played the card game Old Maid, I used to draw her pictures and she would put it on her fridge. The weird thing is I knew it was going to happen. See, a couple weeks before my birthday my Grandma was getting ready to go to a doctors appointment when she fell and fractured her hip. She could either have the surgery to fix it and spend less time in rehab or no surgery and more time in rehab well she chose surgery this time. She never liked being out of her house for too long. She made it through the surgery but I had a feeling deep down that something wasn't right. She went to the rehab place and ended up getting pneumonia and had to go back to the hopsital. She was recovering but 2 days later I think she passed away. I was so sad. I didn't know how I knew it was going to happen but I did. I felt it deep down just this bad feeling that something bad was going to happen.

I will miss my Grandma so much. The thing that she gave me that I love the most is the love of baking. I bake the Thanksgiving pies every year now allthough now I am not sure where Thanksgiving is going to be. My Grandma was the one who tought me how to properly crack an egg. I am going to miss bringing her her glass of water everytime she leaves it in another room and calling her about the weather and reminding her that "60 Minutes" would be on on Sunday nights. She loved that show. Her funeral will be in May and in her home state of Michigan.

I am staying as strong as I can right now thanks to my amazing fiance Rob and my wonderful friends Asu, Sarah, Ellen, Lisa, Terry, Lippy, and more who are always there for me and also Lucy Hale's music is keeping me going through this tough time. I love her and her music and I can't wait until her album "Road Between" comes out June 3rd.

All of this makes me think how much time has gone by so fast and how you never know when your time will be so live each day to the fullest and always follow your dreams and persue your passions. Also, it has made me think of my Nana who is still alive thankfully. She gave me the love of Country Music! We used to sit on the couch at her house and watch CMT music videos of Martina McBride, Shania Twain, Trisha Yearwood, Willie Nelson, Brooks and Dunn, Faith Hill, Tim McGraw, Alan Jackson, Reba McEntire, and more of the great country artists back in the 90s. My Nana loves country music especially Willie Nelson, Aaron Tippin, Patty Loveless, and of course the great Johnny Cash.

I always wished I could take her to see the Grand Ole Opry one day. She loved the Grand Ole Opry and The Johnny Cash Show was filmed at the original Grand Ole Opry and she has that show on DVD and we have watched it too many times to count. I will one day go to Nashville ( I have always wanted to go to Nashville) and hopefully be able to show my Nana me next to the Grand Ole Opry at least. I have always wanted to do that for her.

I have loved country music for a long time. I still have my Leann Rimes cassette tape that I have had since I was like 7 or 8. Country music reminds me of growing up in rural VA and the spring time and the smell of freshly cut grass, and big glass of Ice Tea and yes it even reminds of my best friend Sarah who I have been friends with since we were 12 years old and we are still best friends, she loves country music too! Country music to me is passion, love, tells a story, tells real life, and it just makes me feel good just like Lucy Hale does!

I hope you have something you really love like I do and I am sure you do. Always treasure the memories!

I love you Lucy Hale and this poem is for you!

~Peace and Love~