The Loss Of Someone Special and What It Means To Me

As you may know or should know by now 3 days before my birthday was one of the best days of my life so far. I got to meet on my Idols, Lucy Hale! I love and adore her so much but 3 days after my birthday back at the beginning of Feburary, my Grandma passed away. She meant a lot to me. We laughed so much together. We played the card game Old Maid, I used to draw her pictures and she would put it on her fridge. The weird thing is I knew it was going to happen. See, a couple weeks before my birthday my Grandma was getting ready to go to a doctors appointment when she fell and fractured her hip. She could either have the surgery to fix it and spend less time in rehab or no surgery and more time in rehab well she chose surgery this time. She never liked being out of her house for too long. She made it through the surgery but I had a feeling deep down that something wasn't right. She went to the rehab place and ended up getting pneumonia and had to go back to the hopsital. She was recovering but 2 days later I think she passed away. I was so sad. I didn't know how I knew it was going to happen but I did. I felt it deep down just this bad feeling that something bad was going to happen.

I will miss my Grandma so much. The thing that she gave me that I love the most is the love of baking. I bake the Thanksgiving pies every year now allthough now I am not sure where Thanksgiving is going to be. My Grandma was the one who tought me how to properly crack an egg. I am going to miss bringing her her glass of water everytime she leaves it in another room and calling her about the weather and reminding her that "60 Minutes" would be on on Sunday nights. She loved that show. Her funeral will be in May and in her home state of Michigan.

I am staying as strong as I can right now thanks to my amazing fiance Rob and my wonderful friends Asu, Sarah, Ellen, Lisa, Terry, Lippy, and more who are always there for me and also Lucy Hale's music is keeping me going through this tough time. I love her and her music and I can't wait until her album "Road Between" comes out June 3rd.

All of this makes me think how much time has gone by so fast and how you never know when your time will be so live each day to the fullest and always follow your dreams and persue your passions. Also, it has made me think of my Nana who is still alive thankfully. She gave me the love of Country Music! We used to sit on the couch at her house and watch CMT music videos of Martina McBride, Shania Twain, Trisha Yearwood, Willie Nelson, Brooks and Dunn, Faith Hill, Tim McGraw, Alan Jackson, Reba McEntire, and more of the great country artists back in the 90s. My Nana loves country music especially Willie Nelson, Aaron Tippin, Patty Loveless, and of course the great Johnny Cash.

I always wished I could take her to see the Grand Ole Opry one day. She loved the Grand Ole Opry and The Johnny Cash Show was filmed at the original Grand Ole Opry and she has that show on DVD and we have watched it too many times to count. I will one day go to Nashville ( I have always wanted to go to Nashville) and hopefully be able to show my Nana me next to the Grand Ole Opry at least. I have always wanted to do that for her.

I have loved country music for a long time. I still have my Leann Rimes cassette tape that I have had since I was like 7 or 8. Country music reminds me of growing up in rural VA and the spring time and the smell of freshly cut grass, and big glass of Ice Tea and yes it even reminds of my best friend Sarah who I have been friends with since we were 12 years old and we are still best friends, she loves country music too! Country music to me is passion, love, tells a story, tells real life, and it just makes me feel good just like Lucy Hale does!

I hope you have something you really love like I do and I am sure you do. Always treasure the memories!

I love you Lucy Hale and this poem is for you!

~Peace and Love~