It's Saturday night and I'm sitting here watching one of my favorite shows, Ghost Adventures. I watch this almost every Saturday night. I've been watching shows like this for as long as I can remember. I've been fascinated with the paranormal/unexplained for as long as I can remember. There is just something about hauntings, aliens, UFOs, crop circles, mysterious creatures, etc that just fascinates me. It's hard to explain really.
I guess it all started when I was 6 or 7. One night I was out on my back deck and I look up above the tree line in the backyard I see a UFO. It looked like a string of multi colored rocks moving like a wave just barely above the tree line. I saw it again another night and it was all green. Now remember this was the early/mid 90s. I've never seen anything like that before and I haven't seen anything like it since. I guess that is what started my fascination with the paranormal/unexplained.
I've watched many paranormal/unexplained shows over the years including:
Ghost Adventures, Sightings, Destination Truth, Ghost Hunters, Ghost Hunters International, Unsolved Mysteries, Paranormal State, Paranormal Witness, Weird Travels, Paranormal Lockdown, Kindred Spirits, The Dead Files, A Haunting, and more. I've watched all these and I can't stop. It's all so fascinating to me. Also, Josh Gates cracks me up! It all just gets my gears turning. Just knowing all of this is out there in our world is just fascinating. I especially love watching these shows around Halloween.
Besides these shows, If you're fascinated like I am, you will the Top5's Youtube channel. He is amazing! He does everything paranormal/unexplained. His videos are so thoroughly researched and made. You will sit there and binge watch all of them like I did when I first came across his channel.
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCX51Dixddr5HuwLVBH9ykeQ
There is the link to his channel. Go check it out!
So if you ask me do I believe in ghosts? Yes I do! I believe in ghosts, aliens, UFO's mysterious creatures such as big foot, and more. I also find Mothman, Jersey Devil, The Bermuda Triangle, and more fascinating as well. I have an awesome book with all of that and more in called " The Unexplained".
Anyway, I respected paranormal investigators such as Zak, Aaron, and Josh so much. They have the guts to go to the places people wouldn't ordinarily go to and investigate and it can be super dangerous. They help people as well. The reassure people and make them feel like someone actually believes them and I love that.
So this was just a little post about how the paranormal/unexplained fascinates you. If it fascinates you too, then awesome! I do hope to see a real crop circle one day!
~Peace and Love~
How am I supposed to say goodbye to my favorite show? I can't because it's not goodbye. Once upon a time will live on through hope, strength, believing, and magic. Once Upon A Time was a show that the world needed right now. It gave our world something good to believe in. It gave us all hope and that hope will always be there when we need it most.
Once Upon A Time gave us love stories, triumph, battles, different kingdoms and worlds, many different characters and stories and I will cherish it all. From season 1 when we first meet Emma Swan to the very end of season 7 when we see Emma and Killian with their baby girl Hope and all of the kingdoms together in one place, nothing will ever be forgotten by anyone. Once Upon A Time means more to me than just about any other show I have ever watched and loved and nothing will ever take it's place in my heart. Once was there for me when no one else during my hard times. It gave me hope and strength when I needed it most. It made me smile and filled me with relief. I will always have my DVDs when I need them. Once has inspired me more than any other show as well, especially with my writing. Once Upon A Time will always hold a special place in my heart.
Now, I just want to share some of my favorite episodes and moments:
1. When Emma breaks the first curse and is reunited with her parents.
I loved this one so much! Emma finally had her family back! The one she always deserved to have!
2. Captain Swan Movie - When Emma presented herself as Princess Leia with Killian!
I loved this so much as well! Not just because Emma presented herself as Princess Leia but also because she said one of my all time favorite lines " Who do I look like, Marty McFly"?
3. When Emma sacrificed herself to save everyone and became the Dark Swan!
This was so beautiful to me. Not just because Emma was sacrificing herself and becoming the Dark Swan but because this was the first time she said "I love you" to Killian!
4. Snowing breaking their sleeping curses!
Loved these beautiful moments! They always said they would always find each other and they always did!
5. Both Captain Swan proposals!
I cried my eyes out during both of these!
6. The Captain Swan Wedding aka the musical episode!
I cried my eyes out during this as well! Loved it so much! Emma's Theme is my hope and inspiration everyday and A Happy Beginning is my ring tone!
7. Pancakes!
It was way better than tacos! Haha!
8. Rumple and Belle reuniting in the end!
This was absolutely beautiful! I knew Rumple would find is way back to Belle!
9. Finding out Emma was pregnant with Hope!
I was so happy to have seen this one! Emma was finally happy and getting another chance at motherhood! Everything she deserved and more!
10. Emma, Killian and Baby Hope in the last episode!
This was absolutely everything to me! It's all I ever wanted for Emma!
So those are just 10 of my favorite moments from Once Upon A Time! Yes they are mostly Captain Swan but I can't help them I love them so much!
Now for a thank you to my Idol, Inspiration and my everything, Jennifer Morrison! Thank you again for giving the world Emma Swan! She is a true symbol of hope, strength, light, and love! She is my favorite Heroine and Superhero! The Savior! My Savior! I love Emma Swan more than I love any other character! I relate to her so much! She gave me courage and strength and showed me to fight for who I love and what I deserve! Emma was my strength through many hard times especially when I was bullied and when both of my grandmother's passed way. Even now and forever Emma will always be my hope and strength as will you Jen! You mean the world to me and it is my dream to meet you someday and I hope with all my heart that it comes true! I love you and Emma Swan forever! When I see a red leather jacket or a yellow bug Volkswagen I will think of Emma Swan and I will smile!
And a big Thank you to the other half of my OTP forever and the BEST Captain Hook ever, Colin O'Donoghue! You made me laugh, you made me cry, and you gave me hope! We wouldn't have Captain Swan or Baby Hope without you! No one will ever be a better Captain Hook! Love you!
With that, we close the final chapter of the Once Upon A Time book (for now, because you never know what could happen in the future). Don't ever lose the hope that Once Upon A Time gave us. It may no longer be on our screens as new episodes but the hope it gave us, the inspiration, and the love will always be in our hearts forever! Oncers Forever!
I made this little edit/collage!
"Never say goodbye, because saying goodbye means going away and going away means forgetting." - Peter Pan
~Peace and Love~
I watched Alex & The List a few days ago and wanted to give my thoughts on it so here we go. This cute movie stars Jennifer Morrison as Katherine, Patrick Fugit as Alex and Karen Gillan as Lily.
Basically, Alex thinks he has found the girl of his dreams in Katherine. He plans to propose to her until his best friend Lily convinces Katherine to make a list of "improvements" for Alex. Alex being in love with Katherine and willing to do anything to keep her, decides to do the list. The list includes: get teeth whitened, convert to Judaism as Katherine is Jewish, get circumcised, upgrade wardrobe, learn to love regular sports such as football, and drive a German car. Alex ends up completing the list. He even gave up his dog since Katherine is allergic.
Alex becomes very close with Katherine and her family. What was supposed to be Katherine's brother's wedding ended up being hers well almost. When it came time for Alex to step on the glass, he couldn't do it. He left Katherine at the alter, and went and got his dog back. He ended up finding a new girl at the park. So Katherine was left heartbroken and in tears at the alter.
I felt so bad for Katherine. I wanted to jump through my laptop screen and give her a big hug. She didn't deserve to be left at the alter, heartbroken and humiliated in front of all of her family and friends. I could tell she really loved Alex and I really thought they would end up getting married, I really did. I don't understand how Alex who seemed to be so in love with Katherine, agreed to do the whole list, complete the list and then not marry her. It makes no sense to me to go through all that and circumcision and then not marry the supposed girl of your dreams but that's just me.
Overall, I thought the movie was cute and lighthearted. I wish Katherine had a better ending though as what happened was not really her fault she just did what was suggested to her.
As always, my idol, Jennifer Morrison was amazing and did her character of Katherine so much justice and more. Jen is amazing in everything she does, every character she plays, and more. I can't wait to see more of her projects ones that she is in and ones that she directs as well. She inspires me everyday! Always love and admire you, Jen!
Everyone go check out this movie! It's on itunes, amazon, and in select theaters now!!
~Peace and Love~
I've been shy and quiet my whole life. I would rather find a quiet place to be alone and read or write then be in a noisy crowd of people. I do my best work alone. I have always done better alone. I'm an introvert, nerd, bookworm, and weirdo but I also have social anxiety.
Social Anxiety is much more than just being shy and awkward. Your mind is constantly wondering and questioning things like what should I say? Should I say anything at all? Will this make me look stupid? and more. You could be in a room full of people and your social anxiety makes you think that they all don't like you or they are all staring at you or something. You have a hard time with eye contact because of it. I fidget a lot because of it. It's isolating but I have been getting better with it since using social media. I am better talking in text than in voice. I tend to talk to fast and my voice trembles and I sometimes stutter. Social Anxiety makes you feel invisible. You can get better with time and with people who understand you. It's hard finding people who understand you though. I don't have many people who understand me.
I've always been the quiet one all through school and even now. I have a few close friends who I love. I would be the one in the back reading and hoping I didn't get called on. I hated when we had to get in groups for projects because I was always last to find a group and I was usually put into one like a 3rd wheel or something. I always did my best work alone without having to depend on anyone else.I always hated being the first one done with a test or something. I always waited for others to be done before I got up.
Knowing there are thousands of people out there who feel the way I do does make me feel better it always does. I often get so nervous when I am with people and hardly like doing anything but when I am by myself I can do just about anything. It's freeing to me to be by myself.
It's hard to make friends being the way that I am. I love the fandoms I belong to but I always long to have friendships in those fandoms. I see other people being friends and I wish I could have that but I never know how to go about doing it.
This is basically me everyday and it is really sad. I always keep hoping that one day I will have online friends again.
I get told things like "don't be shy", "Don't you ever speak?", and "Don't be nervous". This by people who are close to me actually and it hurts. It's not like a light switch I can just turn off and on. It's doesn't work like that.
It makes you want to grab people and shake them and say "what don't you understand? I can't just not be shy or anxious or nervous." That's when you wish you had someone who understood you instead of belittling you. People with social anxiety don't want to have it. We don't want to be shy, awkward, quiet, and nervous. We don't want to constantly have "what if" thoughts running through our heads. We want to be like everyone else but we're not. This is who we are. We struggle with this everyday. We are kind, loving, compassionate, passionate, hard working, and friendly and people would know that if they would just get to know us and let us show them who we really are. We often get dismissed and ignored for being quiet and sometimes we don't even get seen. We want to have friendships, relationships, and live normal lives but it's really hard for us. A little understanding and kindness goes a long way.
In a world where I don't often feel like I belong anywhere, my Idol Jennifer Morrison and my favorite shows and fandoms make me feel like I do belong somewhere no matter how alone and invisible I feel sometimes. I relate to Emma Swan on a personal level she never felt like she belonged anywhere and always thought she would be alone forever and she found where she belongs and that makes me feel and believe that I will too! It's my dream to meet Jennifer Morrison someday and I pray every night that it comes true!
This is my life. This is what I have to deal with just about everyday. It's hard but all I can do is take it day by day and hope that one day I will find my happiness and life passion. If I can make it through this you can too. Never give up hope!
I love Jennifer Morrison with all of my heart!
~Peace and Love~
I had been wanting to see this movie for a very long time and Friday night I finally watched it on Netflix and let me tell you it was worth the wait. This movie brings all the feels, sadness, hope, happiness, and everything in between.
Sun Dogs is about a sweet young man named Ned Chipley. Ned just wants to become a Marine, save lives, and kill the terrorists. He goes down to the recruitment office over and over trying to prove to them that he is ready to become a Marine. However do to his "condition" he is not able to become a Marine so Master Sergeant Jenkins makes him a special operative and tells him it's more important to protect people on the home front. He tells Ned his unit is called Sun Dogs. Ned takes his mission to heart and goes on an adventure with a beautiful but troubled young lady named Tally to catch terrorists in their own backyard. Ned first meets Tally at the casino where he works. The Sun Dogs unit doesn't quite work out but in the end, Ned finally realizes how he can help people. Even Ned's mom, Rose ends up following her dream as well.
Sun Dogs is a special movie with a very beautiful message. "Every man needs a purpose" - Sergeant Master Jenkins. All Ned wanted was a purpose in life which is what we all want. I'm 30 and even I don't know what my purpose in life is yet. This movie gave me hope that I too will find my purpose.
There is also a message about suicide in this movie. Tally's mother killed herself by throwing herself off a bridge. I felt so bad for Tally. "Hello, how are you today?" is a simple yet powerful question. You can change just one person's mind about committing suicide just by asking them this question and this question gave Ned his purpose in life.
Sun Dogs was directed by my Idol, Jennifer Morrison who also plays Marie in the movie. Jennifer inspires me each and every day. I couldn't be more proud of her. This movie has won her many award all of which she deserves. I know she will win "Best Director" someday. Her adorable dog Ava even made a cameo as Waffles the neighbor's dog that Ned takes care of.
I loved Sun Dogs so much! The entire cast was perfect, the chemistry was beautiful, and the directing was brilliant! I intend to watch this many more times. I highly recommend this movie to everyone. You can watch it on Netflix right now!
Just one question though, Did Bob ever find the gold? ( if you have watched the movie already then you know what I'm talking about).
go to my instagram lilsouthernhaler if you want to see my instagram story about Sun Dogs where these pics are from. Also we Jennifer Morrison fans who love Sun Dogs are called Swan Dogs!
~Peace and love~
I am probably one of the biggest nerds. I love Fantasy, Sci Fi, superheroes, comics, and cosplay. It's been a lifelong dream of mine to go to Comic Con someday. My fandoms include, Once Upon A Time, Supergirl, Star Wars, Harry Potter, Hunger Games, and more. I'm weird and I'm proud. I wear glasses. I love to read and the list goes on and on. I will be 30 on Wednesday (Jan 31st) and I often get told that I am too old to love what I love and who I love and it's just not true. It all makes me who I am and that will never change. What I love makes me happy, it helps me get through hard times, and yes it hurts to be told that I am too old to love what I love but I will never stop loving them. Nobody can take that away from me.
I have Social Anxiety. I have had it all my life and I have been the quiet and shy girl all my life too. It makes you feel alone and then you find things you are passionate about, fandoms to belong too and suddenly you don't feel as alone anymore. Being a part of my fandoms and having the passions that i do gives me a sense of purpose. A lot of times with Social Anxiety, you don't feel like you have a purpose in the world, people don't understand you, and then you find those special fandoms, a place where people share similar passions as you do and you start to feel understood for once. That's what my fandoms do for me. No matter how old I get, I will always be a part of the fandoms I love and I will always love what I love.
Basically, if you have ever felt like me, been made fun of like me, felt alone, and then found a fandom or fandoms to belong to, don't let those go no matter what anyone says. If it makes you happy then that is all that matters. You can be a teenager, in your 20's, 30's, 40's, and even older, it doesn't matter how old you are, don't let anyone take what you love away from you. You are never too old to be a fangirl, you are never too old to belong to a fandom, you are never too old to go to comic con, you are never to old to cosplay, you are never too old to collect special items from your fandom, you are never too old to play retro video games like I do, and you are never too old to be yourself and love what you love.
Be strong enough and brave enough to say "This is who I am. This is what I love, and you can't take that away from me. You will never change me." Always be yourself and always remember, "Be who you are and say what you feel, because those that matter don't mind and those who mind don't matter." - Dr. Suess. That is one of my all time favorite quotes.
~Peace and Love~
Here we are at the end of 2017. This year went by so fast. 2017 was a year full of ups and downs. From hurricanes, to fires, to the cold now, racial tensions, North Korea, mass shootings, Trump, and the sexual harassment (assault) claims and the feminist marches. Yes 2017 left me feeling sad, ashamed, scared, but also hopeful at some points as well.
2017 in review:
Hurricanes Harvey, Irma, and Maria and the horrific wild fires in California and other western states proves that climate change and global warning are real. Trump pulling the US out of the Paris agreement was so dumb but I am proud that a lot of states are committed to fighting global warming. Animals are dying, polar bears are starving, bees have been dying and it's humans fault. With all of our pollution we are slowly killing the earth and we all need to change our ways to save it. Recycle, use as much green energy sources as you can, don't litter, and reduce as much of the pollution as you can. We need to do everything we can to preserve this planet for future generations and animals. Animals deserve to live on this planet more than we do. They are more compassionate than we are as well.
The North Korea nuclear war threat is just down right terrifying. I have always said that Trump is going to get us all killed and if we don't do something soon he will.
All the mass shootings that have happened I just have no words for that. It's all just sad and we need Gun Control NOW!! How many innocent people must die before we finally get gun control? The senseless and heart break shootings need to stop and I hope 2018 is the year that they do.
And finally, kudos to all the women and men who have come forward with their claims of sexual harassment (assault). That took a lot of courage and I applaud all of you. The feminist marches were inspiring and hopeful. I truly wish I could have been apart of one.
We still have a long way to go and I hope 2018 is the beginning of a good turn around for everyone and the world! We still have a long way to go to achieve equality, peace, love, and compassion. Humanity has let me down so much in 2017. We can all do better and we must do better!
As for me, I've moved back to Virginia from living in Florida for the past 10 years and I am hopeful for my photography career ( * fingers crossed*). It is now officially January and it is my birthday month. I turn 30 on January 31st and there will be a rare blue blood red supermoon on my birthday and I will do my best to see it.
As for my resolutions, they are simple really:
Enjoy the little things
Take more pictures
Read more
Write more
and spread more love!
Happy 2018 y'all!!!
~peace and love~
