Lately

So lately has not been the best time for me. I got so close to my dream coming true of meeting Alyssa Milano and then lost it. I have been called every name in the book by people who I thought were my friends at one point. I have lost a good family friend and my Great Aunt Alice last September. I have been made to feel worthless and like everything I am and love is stupid. So yeah it has not been the best time for me lately. I have cried so much about everything and I am just done now. It takes me a while to realize things and to believe in those realizations and now I have.
 I never thought anybody would do anything to help me make my dream come true. If I had had the money, I would have been there no questions asked but it was so last minute that I didn't have the money then so the great Alyssa's Army on Twitter tried to raise the money for me to go and meet Alyssa. Unfortunately, it was more expensive than any of us realized and we couldn't do it. So yeah I was sad I mean who wouldn't be that is one of my biggest dreams to meet my Hero and Idol Alyssa Milano and I am beyond grateful for everyone who tried to help I really am. I realize that it just wasn't the right time for my dream to come true but that doesn't mean it won't. I know it will. I dream about it so much and everyone tells me it will happen that it has to happen sometime. Alyssa means so much to me. She has made me feel like everything is going to be ok when I felt like it wasn't. She has made me smile and giggle when I felt I would never do that again. She has given me hope when I had lost it all. She's just amazing. She is like Wonder Woman or Super Woman to me. Her beautiful heart full of unconditional love and compassion is amazing to me. Nobody has ever made me feel the way she has and I am so glad that I have the connection to her that I have through Twitter. I would have never found any of the happiness that I did without it and her. Nothing and/or nobody is ever going to take that away from me no matter what. When I joined Twitter I did so to not be lonely anymore and to have a connection to Alyssa and also my ex BFF convinced me to join. I didn't join to cause drama or to hurt anyone or to get sucked into any drama. I don't want anything to do with drama. Twitter is a happy place for me and it will stay that way. I know who my true friends are now and I know I will never lose this amazing connection to my hero Alyssa Milano. Just because I found love with someone doesn't make me a bad person.
I have passions, dreams, and loves just like everyone else. It doesn't make me any less of person and nothing will deter me from pursuing those dreams and passions. I am who I am you can either accept me for it and be my friend or leave me alone and go your own way.
Here are some things I learned from my hard times lately:
1. Don't let anyone take away your happiness or make you feel like your dreams and loves and passions are stupid. It's what makes you who you are and if people make you feel that way you need to just ignore them and go be with your real friends.
2. Don't bottle things up. I do that a lot. I either shut down or explode when I do and it's not good. Write it down that's what I always had to do since I grew up as an only child I rarely had anyone to talk to about anything but now I do. I have the best Fiance and friends who I can talk to and they give really good advice and make me feel better even if it takes me a while to realize it. So Thank you to my fiance Rob, and BFF's Sarah, Ellen, Jen, Terry, Lisa, and Delphine.
3. Have really good role models and hero's and idols in your life like I do. They help make you who you are and inspire you everyday to do good things and make the world a better place. Alyssa Milano, Stana Katic, Lucy Hale, Dana Delany, Shania Twain, Martina McBride, and Carrie Underwood are just some of mine.
4. Don't dwell on things it just makes everything worse. Just ignore the people who make you feel bad. Focus on all the good in your life. Listen to music, write, read, draw, be creative, just do anything to distract your self and take your frustrations out on your pillow or something that can't be broken. Learned that lesson the hard way plenty of times.
5. Just be who you are if people can't accept you for who you are then get rid of them. There are people out there who will accept you for you are. You know yourself better than anyone.
Lastly, always follow your dreams. If there is one thing Alyssa has taught me is never give up on your dreams. They are your dreams because you made them your dreams. There is nothing stopping you from making your dreams come true sometimes it just takes longer than others but don't give up, always believe, and have the courage to pursue your dreams. I will never give up on my dreams. I know I will meet Alyssa one day and I know I will be a published author one day. One of my passions is writing as you can see and it is my dream to be published one day and I know I can do it. As Phoebe Halliwell said, " Everything happens for a reason".
~Peace and Love~

Alyssa Milano's Mistresses Priemieres Tonight!

In just a few hours Alyssa Milano’s new show Mistresses is going to premiere here on the East Coast and I can’t wait. However, there is something that has been getting on my nerves lately. People are judging Alyssa’s show like a book by it’s cover and it is not fair. You can’t and shouldn’t judge anything by the title alone especially if you haven’t even seen yet. How can a person judge a show when they haven’t even seen it yet? I can’t figure that out myself all I know is it is wrong and not fair. Alyssa and everyone has worked hard on this show and everyone should give it a chance. I know in my heart it is going to be a huge hit. Please stop judging things by their titles and please give Mistresses a chance you won’t be sorry you did.
Here’s the promo for Mistresses!


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I just love that pic!
Lastly I want to say to Alyssa that I will always be here for you and supporting you no matter what. Alyssa’s Army and I will always be proud of you no matter what. Nobody has ever made me feel like you have made me feel before. You have given me hope and made me feel like everything is going to be ok when I felt it was not. You inspire me everyday to be a better person and to help the world when I can. I have been giving back since I was basically 5 years old no lie. In Elementary school every year I would do a funderaiser with my school called Jump Rope For Heart. It was so fun to me. I have done an MS walk and a Heart Walk back home in VA. I have done Meals on Wheels growing up and countless other fundraisers throughout my school days. Lately I have donated and spread the word when I can. You have given me a new apprecation for all of this and for continuing giving back. You have made me feel like I am worth it when so many times I felt otherwise. I can’t thank you enough Alyssa and I know someday my dream will come true and I will meet you. I believe it with all my heart and I have never believed in a dream so strong before. Good luck with Mistresses tonight and with Project Runway! You are always amazing and beautiful in my eyes and I love you! <3 nbsp="" p="">

My Thoughts On The Boston Tragedy and More.

As I always do I have to share my thoughts on the Boston Tragedy but first I want to remind everybody that today is the 6 year anniversary of the horrific Virginia Tech Masacre. I will never ever forget that day. I remember that day like it was yesterday everyday. I was at my own college in Richmond, Virginia that day I had no idea what had happened until I was driving home around noon. I was just in total shock and worried. I had friends and people I knew who were there and when I got home I immediately called my best friend Sarah and turned on CNN. Never Forget the victims of that day! RIP!

Yesterday was a day just as horrific as the VA Tech masacre and a grim reminder of 9/11. I was in shock yet again and wondering why we keep hurting each other. I don’t understand it and I don’t think I ever will. My love, prayers, and thoughts go out to the people of Boston during this horrible time. I keep thinking that we need more love in this world and less hate. Hate gets us nowhere and only hurts people phyiscally and emotionally. We need to end the violence and bring in peace and love if not for our generations then for the generations to come. Tragedy dooes bring people together and brings out humanity in a good way, a way we need to have everyday from everybody. I felt so bad for my hero Alyssa Milano when she tweeted that after she put her son to bed she went to her room and cried her eyes out. She just wants peace, love, and compassion to reign through the whole world and so do I and people who immediately start blaming others need to think before they do so because that doesn’t help at all and neither does a certain group of people who are planning to picket funerals of the innocent people who died in the explosions. They have just as much hate in them as do the person or people who set off those explosions. We need more tolerance and respect and less prejudice, racism, sexism, and hate in general. We need more love and compassion and people like Alyssa Milano who are just trying to make a better, safer, and more loving world for us and her son. The least we can do is help her out and help the world heal and come together and bring love to others. Pass along a smile everyday you never know who is needing it. Donate money to charities to help those less fortunate. Hug the people you love and tell them you love them you never know when it will be your last chance to do so. With that I want to show you a quote that goes really well here:

That quote couldn’t be more true. I will always stand by Alyssa’s side and help her out whenever I can. This madness needs to stop!



By giving back you will know what it truly means and feels to be happy! That is a lesson that I thank Alyssa Milano for teaching me! I will always be proud to be a loyal fan and supporter of hers! <3 nbsp="" p=""> ~Peace and Love~

Some things I need to say

I want to apologize before I write this blog post but this is something that I need to do.
We as Alyssa Milano fans love and admire her so much so it makes me so mad and sad when I read of people hating on her and most recently a death hoax about her. This is not the first one either. I remember on the night Sunday's At Tiffany's premiered somebody did a death hoax about Alyssa and it made so mad and sad that it made me cry. I just don't understand these people. It is the lowest of the low to go and spread a hoax that this sweet, amazing, beautiful, and inspirational lady is dead. It hurts so many people and just gets under my skin. These people need to get a life and stop this crap. This latest one apparently happened on Friday but I never saw it anywhere I just found out about it through a post on Facebook. I always knew she was alive. I don't believe these hoaxes and neither should the rest of us. Here is the link to the story in case you want to read about it: http://en.mediamass.net/people/alyssa-milano/deathhoax.html
Alyssa doesn't deserve to be treated this way nobody does and it just makes me so mad that it happens. Alyssa is a wonderful, beautiful, compassionate, inspirational lady who is also a wonderful mother, wife, sister, daughter, cousin, and friend. She does all she can to make our beautiful world a better place and to the idiots who spew such hatred and wish death to her I have this to say: You should be ashamed of yourselves. You are not only hating on one of the sweetest most amazing ladies but you are hurting all who love her by spewing your hatred and it makes me so mad and sad. You are teaching people hate when the world has enough in it already we need more love and people like Alyssa who bring light and love and happiness to the world and she is a prime example of what it truly means to be a humanitarian and a reason why she is my hero. I hope that one day you people come to your senses and stop your nonense but you probably never will.
This last thing I need to say I have been holding my tongue on this for too long now and if I don't talk about it I will blow. I read stories about people doing stupid and bad things and a lot them happen in Florida where I live and I have a habit of reading the comments afterwards and some of those comments make me so mad . There are some seriously ignorant people out there. I was reading some comments a few days ago about how we should cut Florida off and let it float away from the United States and how stuff like that doesn't happen in blue states  and it is not just Florida there are some seriously prejudice comments I have read in the past about the whole south and it just makes me so mad that people are that hateful and that stupid to think that everbody from Florida and the south from that matter are stupid, racist, and sometimes I read toothless stupid hillbillies. What is wrong with people? I am not stupid or racist and I am definetly not toothless. My IQ is 111 I took a test once and that is 1 point above average. You people are talking about just part of the people who live here and in the south but there is a whole other part like me who want love and peace and help people and love music and good food and sports just like the rest of you and I am tired of reading people bashing a whole state for some peoples stupid actions and sometimes a whole region too. You are no better than the stupid people who do stupid and horrible things when you say such hateful things. You are sterotyping and you are being prejudice and I just couldn't hold my tongue any longer and I apologize for this being so long.

~Peace and Love~

A Special Thank You to Alyssa Milano! (@Alyssa_Milano)

This past weekend was Super Bowl weekend and Alyssa went to the big game! As she was watching she tweeted this, " I'm so proud of @touchbyam. And to be at #SB47 and see ladies wearing the line is the best feeling ever. #grateful" That tweeted made me think and realize how grateful I am to Alyssa for making such a wonderful line of clothing for us female sports fan.

Football has been in my blood since the day I was born you could say. I was born on Super Bowl Sunday, January 31st, 1988 they day the Redskins beat the Broncos 42-10 to win the Super Bowl! My aunt is a huge Redskins fan she has been for a long time and of course the fandom got passed down to me. Me in my Redskins shirt when I was 2 or 3:

I am still a Redskins fan but now that I live in Jacksonville, FL I bleed Teal!!

Yes! That is one of my Touch tops I am wearing and that wore to the game!

I also majorly love baseball! Since the days that my dad and I played baseball in our front yard, to going to the Richmond Braves games at the diamond and going to the Orioles/Blue Jays game back in 2006 when I was on my senior trip! Yes, Baseball has been in a my life a long time too! I am a huge Atlanta Braves fan and have several Touch Braves shirts!

My favorite one:

I also have a love for Soccer and college football! I played soccer when I was growing up:

Yes I have a love for multiple sports as do many female sports fans and as does Alyssa herself! Touch has given the female fans a platform to be fans just like the guys and proudly fly our teams colors and wear such comfy and stylish clothes! We don't have to wear pink anymore and we don't have to wear mens clothes that don't fit our bodies. Thanks to my hero and idol Alyssa Milano we, the female sports fans have beautiful, comfortable, team colored clothing that fits our unique bodies and shows the world that the female sports fan does matter and we can be like all the other sports fans and share our love for the sports we so love so I just want to say a huge thank you to Alyssa on behalf of me and other female sports fans world wide for this amazing clothing line and for you in general. It is one of my biggest dreams that I get to meet one day Alyssa and show you my Touch and not just in pictures! You are truly amazing Alyssa and I love you and so do many others all of the world so Thank you! <3

All of my Touch shirts, jacket, and hoodie! The one on top of the long sleeved one is my favorite Braves shirt that I am wearing in one of my pics above didn't realize it had fallen out of my hand when I had layed all the rest out sorry. I also have a Touch Braves bracelet that I wear all of the time and Touch Braves necklace! I love Touch and I just want to again Thank Alyssa for bringing her amazing clothing line into all of our lives! <3

~Peace and Love~

Final Blog Post of 2012

Wow! Hard to believe 2012 is just about over and already is for some of us. This year just flew by and some moments were not the best for me but I got through them with the love, support, and strength of my fiance Rob, My Hero Alyssa Milano, and my BFFs Jen, Lisa, Sarah, Natalie, Lippy, and Ellen! I couldn't have gotten through any of my tough times without them and this little video I made is for them. 

 

I really hope you all like it! Back to my year end blog post. I have had to endure some hard moments this year and I am glad they are over and in the past. 2013 is a new beginning for all of us. Go into 2013 with open hearts and minds. Anything can happen and I hope that 2013 brings all of you everything you dreamed of and more. 2013 is a year for dreams coming true, progress, compassion, peace, love, hope, and new memories. Always believe everything can get better because it always can and always will. May 2013 be all you wished for any more. ~Peace and Love~

PS Rob, Alyssa, Lisa, Jen, Lippy, Natalie, Sarah, and Ellen You all mean the world to me and I will always love you and am always grateful for having you all in my life! <3

Innocence lost

Yesterday in Connecticut there was a horrible tragedy, a shooting again, this time at an Elementary school. 6 and 7 year olds shot dead with a shot gun. In the words of my hero and idol Alyssa Milano "What the fuck is wrong wtih people?" I would love to know why this keeps happening but even more so how do people with mental problems keep getting ahold of these deadly weapons? It's insantity and oh so sad. This is supposed to be the holiday season it's a time of joy, laughter, togetherness, but above all love, but the violence is trying to take the holiday spirit away.

In the midst of every tragedy there is hope and it brings people together all over the nation and even the world. We always overcome everything and we always will with the power love and hope. Alyssa brings that out through twitter her heart is so beautiful and huge and it makes me smile and gives me hope for the future even if things seem bleak right now.

Something else about this tragedy that really gets on my nerves is the media going up to those poor kids who just survive something they never should have gone through in the first actually nobody just have to endure what those kids did but anyway as I was saying the media goes up to those kids and starts interviewing them. I mean are you kidding me? They are traumatized and don't need that right now. You would think they would have some common sense and leave the children alone but no they want to get their story at whatever the cost. It just makes me so mad to see those poor children being interviewed after all they went through. Just leave the children alone. Rant over on that subject.

Every time something like this happens it always reminds me of that day back in April 2007 the worst massacre in US History the VA Tech massacre I was at college and had no clue what had happened until I was driving home and heard it on the radio I was just stunned and worried since I had friends there but they are all ok. I got home and turned on CNN and called my best friend Sarah. It was so scary that this tragedy was happening in my home state of Virginia. Now every time a mass shooting happens I flash back to that April day in 2007.

Now is not the time for debating gun laws and negativity but it's the time to come together as a nation and give love and support to the victims and families of this horrific tragedy but I do believe that something needs to be done and needs to be done soon to stop these tragedies from happening again.

"If you want peace, you won't get it with violence." - John Lennon

My favorite quote by my favorite person! "It's nice to be important, but it's important to always be nice"- Alyssa Milano

 

This is what we need all over the world today!

That is all for now. Be kind to one another always!

~Peace and Love~